MATSUI YUU (SEKIKAWA TAKUYA)

As my best friend recommended me, I underwent psychoanalysis with the purpose of exploring “why I create.” I had a severe obsessive-compulsive disorder due to childhood trauma. I did not want to disclose it, but I had no incentive to refuse.

For six months, I just kept talking about whatever came to mind on a blank wall while being monitored in Shibuya. When I lost contact with my best friend one day, I told about that at the clinic as well as about my childhood. I had opened up about my illness to my friend previously. I went straight up to a very tall building in Shibuya. Shibuya was a place I had frequented since my childhood. I decided to leave the clinic that day.

Years later, I still can’t get in touch with my friend, but I looked back at the video recording and decided to disclose my illness.
When a virus becomes a parasite, it multiplies by creating a membrane on the host’s cells. Dissolving that membrane is called disinfection. I exposed many of the memories I had taken of my best friend to the last night view. Loss dissolves the membrane, and my flooding memories become deformed and disappear. I am colored and covered by many memories.